Caldara: “The first blackout at Milan: personal decline also began”

Mattia Caldara, Milan defender on loan to Venice, told ‘Chronicles of the locker room’: his most important statements

Daniele Triolo

Mattia Caldara, defender of Milan on loan to Venezia, it is told to ‘Chronicles of Dressing Room‘, revealing some interesting anecdotes about his career.

its Andrea Petagna, for example, he said he was “a true friend”. Just think that when I moved to Milan, in the middle of August, he lent me his house for a month because I couldn’t find one available. I will always be ready to help him in the future, even by lending him my home! What alchemy. One look was enough, even on the pitch. That team understood in an instant. A rare thing “.

Caldara then highlighted: “When I went to the Juventus, and then at Milan, I realized that that concept of family is more focused and translated on the individual. There every step is analyzed, it makes the news. I came from a group where each of your mates was your brother, the big names think more of themselves. “One of the big names he played with was Gonzalo Higuain.

“I was agitated the day they introduced me to Milan. It was also Higuaín’s day – recalled Caldara -. I didn’t know where they were taking me, the team manager gave me a shirt and I asked:” What should I do? ? “He replied:” Wait and you’ll see. “We went up to a building in Piazza Duomo, I looked out and saw a crowd of people below, applauding us, singing choruses. Crowds. He was ready, I do not. I enjoyed the moment, but if they had told me before I probably wouldn’t have gone up there. It wasn’t for me. “

Hence, the class defender 1994 he recounted his first injury with the Devil. “There comes a Saturday, a Saturday like any other. There is training, during a shot I feel a stabbing pain in my heel. I think:” Who the hell hit me? ” Patrick Cutrone two meters away. “How did he get me !?” I don’t understand. And instead I realize that no, it was nobody. My Achilles tendon had given out. I had no previous sensations, discomfort, pain. That was the first, real mental hit. I realized that this was not going to be a small thing. They didn’t know whether to operate on me, they were confused days and I was at the mercy of so many question marks. The tendon was still attached to 10%, I flew to Finland from Prof Orava who advised me not to operate. So I have been 50 days with plaster: still, immobile, without being able to do anything. For the first time deprived of playing football. And for us footballers, football is life. A first blackout. I put my soul in peace: there was nothing to be done “.

Caldara then went on to tell the story of the ordeal he experienced at the time of his experience in Milan. “After 5 months I begin to feel better. It was now April. In training I feel that everything is not over yet, but I am improving. Finally I am back on the pitch: there is the Italian Cup against the Lazio. During the game it seemed that nothing had happened in the previous months. I felt good, all right. All the pain had suddenly melted away: «Damn, I’m so fine…». During the week I train to the maximum, confident. I had just returned after 150 days without football. I do a contrast and nothing, the collateral cruciate ligament decides to yield. Dark. Mentally it was as if I had been hit by a meteorite. From a sword that had just pierced me. I felt it: I was almost there. And yet here it is, again, the abyss. An even harder blow than the first. Malignant, hypocritical “.

“It was May, I had already lost a season, that of the big jump. It took me a few days to make it. Just then, personal decline also began. I went to Rome to do rehabilitation, returning to Milan in late September. Mister Marco Giampaolo, in fact, I didn’t even know him, because when I started to be more present a Milanello, he was exonerated. I arrive Stefano Pioli. Three months had already passed, two more were needed. I made two friendlies with the Primavera, but I felt it: the knee was not well. It certainly wasn’t 100%. It took time. Again “, recalled the defender from Bergamo.

Back toAtalanta, he accused, as you will remember, an injury to the patellar tendon. Ending back in the abyss. “It was not normal, so many injuries. I changed my habits, trying to improve my life: either I was genetically made of tissue paper, or there was something wrong. I was looking for this mistake in every part of me. I ate more vegetables I meticulously took care of rest. I began an inner journey together with my partner, Nicole. A journey of personal reflection. She saw me suffer: I was no longer the same person she had known. I slipped down, in the current, carried without the right to react. She wasn’t well either. “Mattia, you are 25 years old and you love your job, but you never manage to play as calm and peaceful as you would like.” I was returning home and I was sad, empty. He knew it was that. what I had “.

If in those evenings I thought about quitting?Yes, once yes. Half a time – confessed the central owned by Milan -. When you have not been able to get over a situation for a long time, the most extreme solution seems to you the best. But I couldn’t give up. Fuck if I couldn’t. I wanted to be happy, that stuff wasn’t enough for me. I had struggled a lifetime to be there, I couldn’t roll it up and throw it all in the trash like a piece of paper full of random words. I was the one who had to get the fog out of my head. I felt limited. I had to get out of it. It was an obligation to me and those of my family. That damned vicious circle had to end, sooner or later. “And in Venice he seems to have found his personal Paradise. Milan, duel with Juventus for a top player in Serie A. The latest >>>

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Caldara: “The first blackout at Milan: personal decline also began”